The Unanswered Whys

My Naked Self

Here I am naked in front of you

I've told you who I am, where I come from

and what I'm looking for

I've revealed everything about myself

I've told you about my fears

I admitted my darkness

I've entrusted you with my precious stone

I've given you my all

I've let go of my insecurities

Here I was learning to love again.

Why

Tell me why have you done this

Tell me why you have allowed me to be naked

Tell me why you pretended to care

Tell me why you said as from now on everything will be okay

Tell me why you made me trust you

Tell me why you lied

Tell me why you acted all perfect

Tell me why you cried with me and said you'll take care of my previous stone

Tell me why you said you'd stay

Tell me why you said we're a forever, the happily ever after

Tell me why you said we're a perfect match

Tell me why you watched me be vulnerable

Tell me why you said I should let go

Tell me why I should trust you again.

Here I am

Here I am crying my heart out to a temporary person

Here I am made a fool and told not to worry

Here I am lied to and I'm told you're not like my past

Here I am mesmerised by the illusion of perfection

Here I am guard down, for you said you were different

Here I am a fool who believed those things

Here I am eyes red can't even talk for I'm in disbelief

Here I am crying myself to heal for I believed that you were genuine

Here I am in the same predicament again

Why, Why, Why

Tell me why you did this

Tell me why you violated me

Tell me who stole what was precious to me

Tell me why you made me believe you're the one

Tell me why.

How

How did you do it

How did you make me fall for you

I was so careful, I know but you...eish, I messed up

Shouldn’t  Have

I shouldn't have allowed myself to fall

I should have kept my head held high

I shouldn't have allowed myself to ignite the spark between us

I shouldn't have allowed myself to follow you

I should have kept to my corner

You invaded my privacy

You invaded my space

You begged for accommodation, a refuge for your stone

You appeared broken and healed

You were imperfect yet, glowing

You said all is well

You lied

Oh Why

Why did I allow myself to believe you

Why did I just let go

Why didn't I keep to my corner

Why. Why. Why.

Time to heal and let go, tell me why.

By: T. Sibiya

T-Angelz Creations